My Testimony

My apologies for not posting here for a while now. This is due to being distracted by the worries of this world. Lately my life has been in a Luke 8:7 moment, ´Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up with it and choked the plants.´ where my faith has been undermined by the worries of life. Today I felt like the spirit wants me to share my testimony with you, so here goes.

At the beginning of 2010, my life seemed to be on a high. I had a promising career, I was in full control of my life, I was having the fun of my life, life with my young family was just starting out, I had these great plans, or so it seemed. This may sound cliché but something was missing. It was empty. In an attempt to fill the void I was partying hard drinking 750ml vodka at a sitting on a regular basis. Alcohol consumption for me was on a daily basis. I had an affair as that seemed to be the in thing. At our end year party done in early 2010, I put my foot in my mouth after drinking too much and basically embarrassed myself.

My job involved a lot of travel and since I had a back problem, I decided that before we start our annual rounds, it would be advisable for me to visit a specialist and have it checked. I went to hospital and was recommended for Physiotherapy and that is where the problem began. After the physiotherapy session the back felt better but later that night I could not sleep due to the excruciating pain I felt and had to rush back the following day for some pain killers. And thus started my journey to the specialists, one after the other in my attempt to get help for my back that was slowly degenerating. On the family front, I just decided to confess to my infidelity. We separated and as we tried to talk things over but deep down I felt like I was not satisfied with that relationship due to the emptiness. At work, the health problems affected my performance to the point where I was taken from the field and placed temporarily in the office awaiting redeployment which was good because now I could attend hospital and undergo the physiotherapy sessions. However, my back just kept on getting worse and after trying one doctor and seeing no rest, I moved on to another. Eventually it was determined that the physiotherapy was not good for me so I had to stop and was put on very strong medications that brought with it other complications. Now I had also an ENT allergy and high blood pressure to contend with. On the family front due to my unrealistic demands, we just had to separate completely with the wife taking away our daughter. Financially things just seemed to be going against me as both due to me making wrong decisions and the employer making other ones, I had to be deducted some cash, therefore I was facing a strain.

Now back in December 2009, I had seen a Joel Osteen show in family TV and it had given me some inspiration but I can´t say that I had received Christ. So I continued to watch him religiously. With time I decided to give my life to Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour but still not completely as I did not let him take control of my life. Come November 2010, I was advised by my doctor that the best option was for me to be put on complete bed rest for an undetermined time. Our employer was thinking of restructuring and laying off some people and given my current situation, I was sure I would be a prime candidate and so I prayed asking God to show me a way forward. For me the choices were two, either continue with the uncertainty and pressure of being employed and by time until I was retrenched or resigned. I believe the Lord gave me an answer that should have scared me given my situation but I was surprised at the calmness with which I received it. So at the end of November 2010, I handed in my resignation. After undergoing the process, I was retired on medical grounds in March 2011. In December 2010, I decided to stop taking any medications due to the adverse impact on my health. I continued to be on complete bed rest and started to earnestly read the bible and watch evangelical shows on family and God TV. Sometime in May 2011, while watching a show that someone was praying for people to be healed, I felt a rush flow through me and knew that my healing had come. The pain did not stop immediately but I just felt within that I had been healed. Gradually, the pain started to subside and even disappeared completely for sometime that I was even able to do somethings that I was told to forget about.

Currently my relationship with the Lord has never been strong. My life is not perfect and like I said, I am suffering some worries of life but you see, those are what the devil uses for us to stop focusing on the light. I have had crises that have shaken my faith to the core leaving me at time feeling angry, confused, weary but ultimately I read the word of God that re-energizes and restores me. I know He is my Shepherd of Psalms 23. I will trust in Him just as David in Psalms 37:3-4, ´Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.´ The other day I felt a joy in my heart about the trials I am facing because I understood what James was saying in James 1:2-4, ´Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.´

Jesus made a call to me to use this blog as a means of spreading the word and this I have gladly accepted. Make that choice to allow Him into your life and hand over your life to Him so that He may work through you.